I believe the universe was preparing me for something – the pivotal moment when the oncologist would tell us, many months later, that the cancer was back and had spread to other organs in my husband’s body.
With you…and without you.
We are hopeful though, hopeful that we will find a way to drive down this road without all the obstacles and signposts that keep us distracted from the real issues at hand. It never ends, does it? It will go on forever and we will be lucky to have been a part of it; part of the road less travelled.
Not even Don could find the right words to express his astonishment. Beating the house is one thing, but doing it in such an astonishing style is just mind-blowing.
Perhaps over time I will be able to put this little ball of grief somewhere, store it in a grief drawer or bury it in my back yard with my phlox and roses and dahlias. Maybe there, the grief will lie in hope that it will grow into something, perhaps even into joy.
I wasn’t his childhood Aunt, but I was best friends with the woman who was. Things changed, time passed, and I would come to know him as my nephew. Fleeting moments, years apart, the one who created the family tie, now gone. But we are family, only now, not so much by creation, but by choice. Today, March 15th, Jesse Aaron Williams turns 40 years old. I can’t help but celebrate the man he’s become.
“You made it a special day for me. You know how? – by just being yourself. There’s only one person in the whole world like you and I like you just the way you are.” ~ Mr. Rogers
When’s the last time you considered playing bingo? It turns out, bingo is a wonderful addition to a healthy lifestyle, adding a sense of community and social belonging. Bingo brings people together!
The older I become, the more I realize I never did understand much about life’s really important things. I was always the one being forgiven, never the one offering forgiveness. Now, I see that I’m just the middleman between the blind and the divine.
The last straw, as they say, was smoking in the rain during blizzards, snow blowing in your face as you puff away at that little white stick. I mean, how ridiculous right?