I shared my experience with a shaman and angels who released some very dark energy that was limiting my healing. I wanted to follow up on that story today.
My energy has been up and down for the last couple of weeks, ever since that first healing session. For a few days I was great, but then the crash came and I spent a week barely able to crawl through the day. It was worse than before. Pain in every joint, a feeling of nausea that killed my appetite, constantly nagging. I know what it is – it’s the poison from the snake, released into my system as it was removed from my energetic self. (In case you’re wondering, I have no doubts about the reality of that snake. I feel amazing shifts in my body now that it’s released, even with the poison.)
My EFT/TAT therapist worked with me to release the poison, but it held on. My osteopath and myofascial massage therapist tried to release it. I still felt putrid. I can feel it now, not of me and yet within me. I’m trying to allow my body – both physical and energetic – the rest and recuperation time it needs to heal. But I must admit that I’m growing impatient as I reached the third anniversary of the beginning of my healing. And the physical trauma started a year before that. Wow. Four years of me being down. I am so ready to go!
I had another session with my shaman this week. My healer saw that poison immediately as we began our work. She told me that it was to be expected, and she would clear it. She asked for help and a magical healer, a unicorn, agreed to help release the first layer of the poison. Interesting, this unicorn. I immediately felt the love of my horses all around me – my magical teachers and healers. They worked together to release the first layer of poison and then I felt great. For 12 hours. That was four days ago.
As I write this I’m exhausted again. I had to lay down at 10:00 this morning I woke up at 3:30 this afternoon. It’s 7:00 pm and I’m still groggy. I’ve been like that three out of the four days since the most recent release. I’m in the dead zone – what I call the physical state in which our subconscious releases bad things. It’s also like being a walking zombie. I’ve been here so often in the last three, make that four years. I know it well. Even if it drives me crazy – it’s a good thing, more cellular slime is clearing – another layer of me is peeling away to leave room for the new and true.
I know that the place of light and limitless energy is ahead of me on my path. I also know that after holding that dark energy for all my life, I must be patient and allow the healing to take it’s own best path and pace. I am lifting, clearing, rising to my own clear vibration. But sometimes, like today, my patience wears thin. That doesn’t really change anything, it simply makes me cranky.
Funny, just as I was powerless as a child to defend myself, today I find myself powerless to push forward in my healing. Pushing only sets me back, and I’m committed to nothing but forward progress. And so I must accept the pace and flow of my healing, saver the energetic days in the same way I honor my slow days.
That too is a new learning for me. I’ve pushed through every other blockade or barrier in my life. Now it’s time to flow with my own path and push no more.
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I know this one only too well! Seems like it has taken forever at times for those toxins that are stored in the fibers of my being to release and clear! Old feelings coming out for a long, long time. Only made me realize how much old stuff was stuck inside me! Much more relaxing after it has released! But tough to wait for!
Dan