Would I be where I am now if I hadn’t gone through the abuse and issues I’ve had? Hard to say. I want to say that I did have to go through it, but my mind can’t wrap around it at times. I also wonder if I could go back, what would I change? But obviously timelines will be altered, different. Not necessarily for the better.
We need to count our blessings I suppose. I try to. Can’t complain too much about my life right now. Life’s pretty good actually. But things on the surface can be fine, but underneath? Cold, spoiled, maybe even rotted. Once in a while it shows as a watermark from a leak.
Positivity and gratefulness should be the ammunition against all that is negative and anything that potentially becomes a hurdle. The more you lean on it, the more the bad gets phased out. Now putting it into practice? Not so easy. Especially now. The world is a whole lot different than it used to be. This wasn’t what I planned for.
I guess the bottom line is just to keep going. It’s normal for things to go south from time to time. All people, places, and things are not perfect… at all. Focus on what’s going right, and dismiss the rest. It is what it is.
I was fooled, tricked, and abused. I fell for it, and went along with it for a very long time. Even though my mental, and yes, physical states took a huge hit, good did come from it. Not excusing the abuse, etc. at all. Never. But, there are positives.
When she died, I also died. Slowly I awaken, lost. A rebirth would be a way to better describe it. Where do I go from there. Essentially I started over. A redo if you will. Discovered my self a little more. Life kind of changed. The perspective shifted.
Life’s not perfect, and it will never be. Never. Even if we go through some rough parts. Use the past to plow through the present, while we build the future. It is something that I would say is unavoidable. So what do we do? What do I do? No way around it. Head on.
Current listen: MxPx: Mistakes Will Be Made
“Sometimes I wish I
Could hit the rewind
On some things that I’ve
Done in my lifetime
But that’s not how it works
There’s no going back
Let’s fix all we can
And live well, that’s the plan”
Photos are by Joel Rosario – All Rights Reserved
Guest Author Bio
Just a human trying to deal in this mad world. Allow me to share random thoughts and observations about my life and the commonality we all share as humans. Through music, quotes, etc.
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