It’s amazing sometimes when I sit and think about my life and how unorthodox it was. Being paraded around and no one saw the red flags or thought to question it. A sensitive subject I suppose. I know some saw it, people who mattered, but I was being brainwashed, programmed, blinded.
Where was everyone? I take some of the blame even though some say I was a kid and was being used and manipulated. I put walls up and Stockholm set in. What did they know? I knew what I was doing. No, no I didn’t.
Things could have been a lot worse… or could it? Depends how you look at it. The sacrifice was family ties, not being a good son or brother. But I was a victim of abuse, and so were the others. Obviously no regard for my life or family, or regard for her own children and family.
I remember going places, being introduced… an ignorant teenager that didn’t know any better. Feeling awkward half the time. I often wonder that people HAD to suspect something was up. A red flag, anything. All minded their own business. I can’t blame anyone.
The path was paved the way it was paved. Sure, you should stand up and make your voice heard, but it’s not that easy. You have to think about the collateral damage. It’s a two edged sword for sure. Perhaps if I realized what was going on, or stood up, I would be in a better mental state.
Doesn’t really matter now, does it? What’s done is done. Played the cards that were dealt, what else could I do? What could anyone do? I was lost, alone, even though I had the open arms to run into. The prodigal one.
“A man dies when he refuses to stand up for that which is right. A man dies when he refuses to stand up for justice. A man dies when he refuses to take a stand for that which is true”. – Martin Luther King, Jr.
Current Listen: Nine Inch Nails – Everyday Is Exactly The Same
I can feel their eyes are watching
In case I lose myself again
Sometimes, I think I’m happy here
Sometimes, yet I still pretend
I can’t remember how this got started
But I can tell you exactly how it will end
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Joel Rosario
Just a human trying to deal in this mad world. Allow me to share random thoughts and observations about my life and the commonality we all share as humans. Through music, quotes, etc.
Website: Resound and Rebel
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