I’m looking through the window of my lifeless memory,
Watching what I would have been had I chosen to be free,
From lust and drink and raucous sprees,
And nights of stupor next to seas,
By moonlight feigning ecstasy,
By sunrise gazing into dreams,
Escaping from reality,
And waking up a casualty,
Around me paradise proceeds,
Before me more than eyes should see,
Warring with deceit,
If only I had tried to be,
More than just soliloquy,
Bordering on enmity,
Am I my own worst enemy?
I manifest my destiny,
On plains of slain necessities,
Stake claims in wanton revelry,
Imploring dear sweet empathy,
Will anyone remember me?
Painting is by Ernesto Sarabia – All Rights Reserved
Guest Author Bio
Ernesto is a writer, painter, musician, poet and amateur philosopher. He grew up in South Central Los Angeles during the 90’s and attended Catholic elementary, middle and High School. He attended the University of California at Santa Barbara but was unable to complete his business economics degree after suffering a traumatic brain injury during the summer before his Senior year in 2010. Although he has endured much struggle throughout his recovery from his brain injury he still maintains a positive attitude and hopes to one day be able to help others who face similar circumstances so that they may find strength and encouragement through reading about his life experiences.