There was a woman I loved very much. And we were very young. A very dangerous combination. We decided we wanted to be a family, so we decided to have a baby. Then, after she was 3 months pregnant, she decided she didn’t want to be with me anymore and moved away. Just the next town over but it might as well be light years away.
Needless to say I was devastated. I felt as if I was betrayed by the person I trusted the most. My attempts to communicate were only met with hostility. Knowing the stress that having a baby could have on a woman, I decided to leave her alone. Just because I was not calling her or texting her did not mean I could just forget about the whole situation. Actually, it was all I could think about. I fell into a deep depression. I lost weight, lost friends, lost connection to who I was.
Kernel of Love
I also lost my job. Not that I was incredibly upset about losing that particular job, but I needed a source of income. I decided I was not going to let myself be defeated. I am a person with goals and determination and not even I could stop myself from succeeding.
I took pen to paper and sketched the days away to distract myself from my sadness. While I was still very depressed about the whole situation, I could not stop creating new art. I went all in. I purchased a domain, styled the website, and produced a portfolio. Everyday I work on different aspects from growing my business to improving my design skills to taking on new projects helping others with their dreams.
Usurp The Crown
There is no excuse not to follow your dreams. In following your dreams you find who you are, or in my case who I was. I was able to regain the joy in my life that had escaped me. I became my own best friend. I started dating art. We have a great relationship now. We have many children.
My unborn child will know a man who never gives up no matter what life may throw at him. I hope to instill my love of art in her as well. I’ve never met her but she already fuels the fire in my heart. I’m already looking forward to producing her first coloring book.
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Art by Joel Bonilla – All Rights Reserved
Guest Author Bio
Joel Bonilla
Joel Bonilla is a 24 year old graphic artist and web developer. Born in New York City, he enjoys the finer things in life: Pizza, beer, staying up late, and skateboarding.
When he isn’t drinking a beer while eating pizza while he stays up late on a skateboard, he studies various skills to further his career aspirations. Short term goals are to become a back-end web developer by January 2016. Long Term goals: Unification of South America into a global superpower. But that comes later.
Blog / Website: Not Safe
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