A woman undergoes a reluctant evolution, but an evolution all the same.
Lately, I’ve been feeling a shift. Ever since daylight savings, things have been different — darker, ironically, in this economizing of sunlight, but also quieter. A quiet that feels ominous. That kind of cinematic quiet when sound disappears, and everything turns to slow motion as the world blows up around you. All is muted except for the faint tinkling of your life’s debris falling back to earth.
I’m being melodramatic, but this is how it feels right now. My life is changing. It’s changing whether I like it or not, and in ways I can’t even articulate or enumerate yet. What began as the movement of one notch on the clock face seems to have set in motion a cosmic landslide beneath my feet.
I’m not someone who enjoys change, yet I am very adaptable. I have lived in three different cities over the past 10 years. I have attended different schools, worked different jobs. I’ve been in love twice… And regardless of changes, everything works out in the end—I do believe this.
Yet, for me, it’s always a reluctant evolution, grasping at the inside of the cocoon as the winds of a new season pull me outward. Once I’m out, I’m fine. It’s choosing that moment to launch my inaugural flight that’s a challenge. Luckily, life doesn’t always give you the choice. Sometimes that cocoon is ripped from you, or you from it, and either way, you might as well fly.
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Katie, this is a wonderful article about how you are feeling just now and an appropriate graphic to visualize it. I know it is sort of a “limbo” you are in just now and it is scary not knowing what will happen. I came across a few quotes that you might like. Some of them it says who the author is and others it is “author unknow”. They can express words and thoughts better than I can. But you know my philosophy of life and that basically, “What will be will be” and “Don’t worry be happy”. Love, Mom
One day at a time — this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering.”
Continuity gives us roots; change gives us branches, letting us stretch and grow and reach new heights. ~Pauline R. Kezer
Happy is the man who can endure the highest and lowest fortune. He who has endured such vicissitudes with equanimity has deprived misfortune of its power. ~Seneca
Things turn out the best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out”
– John Wooden
“Our lives are not determined by what happens to us, but how we react to what happens; not by what life brings us, but by the attitude we bring to life. A positive attitude causes a chain reaction of positive thoughts, events and outcomes. It is a catalyst a spark that creates extraordinary results.”
“When we are no longer able to change a situation… We are challenged to change ourselves”
~ Vicor Frankl